Life is so!!

“Have u ever seen light rays passing through dense trees in a forest ?” she asked me all of a sudden. Even before I could relate to her talk she replied,”I have and it looks so inspiring,so beautiful. Just like how breathtakingly refreshing these snow covered mountains look.” I smiled at the innocence that floated in her deep black eyes. Were they this beautiful even before? Her cheeks were blushed as pink as the roses she was fond of. Her smile reminded me of our little daughter back home who must be eagerly waiting for our return,with the teddy bear I promised I would get her. I had always felt I had never been able to love her as much as I was capable of. Not because she was not worth it,in fact I felt I was not worth her and this realization hurt me even more. Not very long back,when I was younger, I had met a girl,I wouldn't mention her name because she wouldn't like it,because even today her likes, her smile and priorities mattered to me. I had never been close to anyone as I was to her, I found my reflection in her. We had the same likes and dislikes, we shared similar tastes in everything from food to friends. Whoever told opposites attract was not true in our relationship, we were soul mates. I dreamt of a life with her, of a lifetime of happiness and everything people say a fairytale had. We were together for more than seven years(nick named Siamese twins in college) and then she left to London,where her parents were. She never returned,she said she didn't want to. It broke me into thousand pieces or more...I was devastated....but then gradually I gained my life back,or so I claimed,I devoted all my time to work and climbed the stairs of success at a faster pace than others. I got married as per my parents wishes,to a girl my parents thought was fit for me. I had no opinion in the matter at all because all I could think of even then was about my love who had bid me bye for no reason I could think of. After five years of being married to my wife and having a lovely little angel for a daughter,life was moving on. But every night when I go to sleep I thought of her,it was as if I was haunted by her memories. I was never able to forgive her nor was I able to hate her. The fact was that I still loved her,missed her touch on my face,her fingers that she ran through my hair, her soft lips that showered me with kisses. No matter how hard I tried it was impossible to leave her thoughts aside,to forget her. But today after so long I saw how beautiful my wife was. She had taken me out on a vacation,just the two of us,she had made sure we go somewhere very remote,where technology wouldn't pull me back to work,where we could be completely to ourselves. She held my hands and ran in the snow,I ran too, smiling and laughing along with her. Something in me asked me to let go,to forgive and to forget,to try being what my wife expected me to be,what my baby wanted me to be. A calmness engulfed me, a halo of peace. That night, before going to sleep, all I thought of was of the day we spent together and of my new found love for her.