A Will to go...

I have turned 74 today. My children live in distant places now. I still remember them as the little babies they were in my arms, who had held my hands and cried disagreeing to go to school, who considered me their best buddy during their teenage, who made me proud by doing well for themselves in the career paths they chose. They ask me to leave my home and stay with them now. My lovely dear grandchildren too force me all the while. But to leave this place, where Vinay and I had started our lives together, where we had gone through everything life threw at us, where he took his last breath,was next to impossible to me. I loved him dearly, more than anyone else in my life, probably even more than Vishak and Aditya, my children. We were strangers when we married. All I had seen was his photo till our wedding day. When I saw him for the first time, the first impression I got was, he must be someone who takes life very seriously. I felt very immature in front of him. But as we proceeded and got to know each other, it all changed. We were best friends ever since. He kept me happy and I consider myself very lucky to have got him as my life partner. I have had a very rewarding life in all aspects. I am a very content person. Vinay had taken care of all my priorities and had been with me whenever I needed him. It is a sad thought to leave him alone here and go to the better place my children insist. They are all here to celebrate my birthday and to take me along with them when they leave tomorrow. Before leaving I have done my duty of splitting all that we had saved into two equal parts for our children. The Will is ready to be executed once I leave to someplace none knows, when I would live only in memories. I tended to my lovely garden, smelt the beautiful roses, walked on the fresh green grass, sat on the bench we had placed to drink tea every evening. I did everything I thought I would miss when I leave here. But there is something that keeps telling me that I wont have to go…someone whispers to me to go to sleep in peace. I am off to bed; I need to switch the lights off.